Ahh, the first day you need air conditioning. It takes me back to a time when things were simpler, well some things were simpler. Today I am reminded of lazy summers filled with swimming at the river and jogging laps around our trailer. I used to do a lot of crunches and lunges every afternoon, summer was the best time to exercise. There is something renewing about summer sweat. I can still smell the grass and dirt, when I used to play with Togy. I'd play tug-of-war with him until we were both exhausted; then I'd lay in the cool grass while he'd lay next to me. There is something about the first warm day that brings back a lot of good memories. At the same time I remember the good things I do so in a wistful manner. The times of waking up knowing that the day is mine for the taking is over. Now I wake up with the knowledge that I'll be in pain today. Some mornings I wake up hoping for a low pain day, while other mornings I wake up from pain.
I guess today I'm a bit depressed at what I used to have. I know I should be thankful that my new fibro medicine, Lyrica, seems to be working, and most days I am very grateful. That doesn't mean my pain is gone, though. I have less bad days, two or three a week rather than six or seven a week; which I am thankful for. Most likely I will feel better later today after a shower and my tramadol kicks in.
I am just slightly concerned about a lump in my neck that I've had for four years. Doctors dismiss it but I think it's slowly growing and I wish someone would just look at it. It's kind of annoying.
I do have an appointment with a new rheumy, one that comes highly recommended for EDS by a friend on Facebook. I hope that goes well. I would like to get custom braces. That would be really nice.
I'm sure this mood will pass shortly, but right now...
My Journey With:
Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (hEDS) ~ Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS) ~ Focal Impaired Awareness Seizures (Complex Partial Seizures) ~ Fibromyalgia ~ Chronic Myofascial Pain (CMP) ~ Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) ~ TMJ Dysfunction ~ Bipolar I Rapid Cycling With Psychosis ~ Migraines ~ Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (My OCD is currently in remission except for hoarding) ~ Keratosis Pilaris (KP) ~ Complex-Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD) ~ Panic Disorder ~ Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) ~ Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) ~ Non-suicidal Self-Injury (NSSI or SI) ~ Painful Piezogenic Pedal Papules ~ Hashimoto's Thyroiditis (Autoimmune Hypothyroidism) ~ Irritable Bowel Syndrome ~ Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) ~ Multiple Phobias ~ Chronic Headaches